I cried today. I am currently reading a book titled "A man called OVE". It's a great book that brings out many emotions - laughter, anger, happiness and today tears. I was reading a chapter on how he met and married his wife. That part brought on happiness and laughter on how they met and decided to marry. At the end of the chapter it described how his wife was in the hospital and died with him holding her hand and how he held it for over an hour after she died. After reading this my emotions came on strong. It made me think of Susan. I wasn't with her when she died. I couldn't hold her hand. I left the hospital thinking I'd be back in a few hours. She wasn't supposed to die so fast. Then I got a call from her daughter that she passed away suddenly. I'm glad that her daughters were there when she died but I should have been there too. I wish I could have been holding her hand. In the book Ove said his life ended when his wife died. I went through a rough period after Susan died but I never felt that my life was over. I was fortunate to have my three children close by and they supported me. I still miss Susan and I won't forget her. We had a good life together but I was able to move on and find happiness and joy in my life again.
